Don't get me wrong, I'm happy, happier than I've probably ever been. If you detect any sadness, it is only because I have found you in this life but I am not sure if I have found you in previous lives and I am worried about finding you in future ones.
What if there is a series of sad me's going backwards and forwards in time who did not and do not find you?
What if this is the only point of light along that infinite line?
So I am sorry if there is a hint of sadness.
I am just feeling sorry for myself.